To be truly present requires us to trust the decisions that brought us to this moment. We can neither fear the future nor rue the past if we are truly being present. In our practice of santosha or contentment, we learn how to do that. No one can authentically be in this moment without working with the light and the shadows within.
That this is soul work makes it complicated work, but also the most rewarding. I am not teaching yoga. I am offering a space for people to find their sweetness through yoga and then bring that out into the world. That takes time and it also takes commitment on my part and theirs. When someone asks to extend their package when they haven't shown up for months, it hurts a little. I'm committed to their practice, but are they?
I am officially on empty and I could have avoided this if only I had shown up for myself a little bit more. I sacrificed me for the sake of others and this is a pattern that needs to shift…. Again…
At the ripe old age of 54.8, I can say that I really trust my soul. This has been a sometimes arduous journey for me. Looking back, although there have been hard times and struggles, my soul has never hung me out to dry. I can see the method in the madness and the soul in the strife.